Pee Pee Dance
Have you ever noticed than when you have to pee really really badly, but you can't because you either have to wait in line or find your keys or whatever, that you jump around or kick your legs out? I noticed that today as I fumbled to get me keys into the door and then almost tripped over my cat as I ran to the toilet. When I first realized that the surge was coming, I started crossing my legs and standing on one, like a flamingo. And I know that I've seen other girls do that as well, especially in bar settings. I didn't really make me feel better, or lessen the urge, so I started to wander why it was that we did it.
I guess it's just another one of life's little mysteries.
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There was a bit of drama last night. Long story short, I was called out for being standoffish and "not hanging out". Standoffishish? Yes, very true. And the other part is technically true. I really haven't been "hanging out", but then again I really haven't been invited to hang out, not even on my own birthday.
What I think is that someone's ego is a little bruised that I haven't been calling. See, I was always the one to start conversations. If we hadn't heard from each other in a week, I would send an email or give him a call. But guess what? I got tired of always being the one to make the effort, especially when we are supposed to be friends. And he had the nerve to admit that he hasn't called either but it's okay because he has reasons....he's been busy. Fuck that. Everyone's been busy. I hate that he thinks that he has the corner on that market. Or that he thinks that it's only ok for him to blow people off.
Can you tell that this conversation did not end well? Basically I shut down. I'm still pissed off and hurt at a lot of things and I'm just not ready to talk to him about any of it. And that hurts him because he knows he was always the one I talked to stuff about. I told him straight out, "Well I wasn't interested in hanging out or talking with you." He didn't like that one bit. So he threw in some, "well there's obviously something wrong. I just wanted to let you know I care." Right. Noted. I'll get back to you on that.
Needless to say, I was heated and it put me in a shitty mood for the rest of the night and for today.